Review: IF I BREAK by Portia Moore

For Lauren, marriage to an insensitive jackass of a husband wasn't what she thought it would be. She can't figure out why she stays. Perhaps she's addicted to his manipulation and narcissism. She can't leave no matter how much she tries.

Throughout the book, we jump back and forth between the past and present, ping-ponging between lust at first sight to painful obsession. Of course, neither is healthy. "The Prince Charming myth is the other curse God created to punish Eve and every other woman for biting that stupid apple." (11)

The words are full of sadness, regret, and anger, which make for a captivating read.

Lauren is witty and frank; Cal is such a condescending, arrogant ass. The two have an exhausting love/hate relationship that only seems to be affecting Lauren. They're either fighting or having wild sex. The whole thing mainly centers on her obsession with Cal and how she started and ended up with him. It gets a little tiring after a while. So, basically, he pampered her with flashy cars and fancy art? Big Whoop!

I was somewhat curious to the meaning of the title. If I Break could possibly signify the end of her marriage. Will she die without Cal? Frankly, you don't know if you want her to.

Although this is a long-winded novel (I mean, all you hear is Lauren pining and whining about Cal,) a tiny mystery reels the reader back in. As you get closer to the end, you can't decide if to root for the marriage or hope they end in divorce.

My rating: 3.5 stars