“The world seems far too happy for me to be in it.” (LOC 43)Would anyone notice if I jumped off this bridge? A question that runs rampant on the mind.
“I wonder, am I alone or are there others just as sad as I am?” (3) No, you’re not. It’s totally relatable.
Before her 30th birthday, Hope has had her world crash and burn all around her with her divorce, lost job, no money, and a secret pregnancy. Yeah, you really don’t know people as well as you think.
“I am an unemployed, unattached thirty-something girl, who for the first time in her life isn’t in a rush to go anywhere.” (17)
“Is [life] actually fake happiness filled with doubt, sadness, and fear, or is there a happy ending waiting for some of us?” (25)
“Basically your youth deceives you into thinking you’re special. That you can change the world and have anything you desire. All you have to do is work for it. Then, one day, you wake up, and you’re not only old, but you realize nothing about you is special.” (52) I liked that “right between the eyes” retort. Happiness is fleeting; Depression stays with you.
Then Hope begins to write—write about the life she wishes she had and the life she actually had. Writing is therapy.
Story has a candid and somber voice that is so refreshing. A raw, touching and very real story of life and unanswered questions. Story is about falling—falling into a depression so deep that you feel dead. It’s about being ashamed of your failures in life.
“Regret is normal. Pain is normal. Sadness is normal…We just have to remember not to let it consume us indefinitely. Grief will happen, but we have to pick ourselves up and move on.” (171)
This is a story about “forgiving, but not forgetting.”
My rating: 4 stars