These poems
actually don’t read so much like poems; they
feel more like little stories—stories told from the eyes of a middle-aged man
dealing with his overbearing mother, nagging girlfriend, and every dull drone
in his sleepy town of Downer. Each is a mere observation. For instance:
[Excerpt,
pg. 13]
Today I saw an old man walking
with a young dog,
and I wondered what they’ll do
when the other is no longer here,
the dog having no one to feed him
and the man no one to walk toward.
As I
continue reading, the nameless narrator feels restless in his town, in his
life.
[Excerpt,
pg. 23]
Sometimes, in the middle of the night,
I pack a suitcase in my mind,
softly sliding shirts and slacks, socks and
shaving cream
into the dusty suitcase while Charlene
snores in the next room,
and I sit alone in the quiet living room,
stuck on the sofa with a cup of powdered
cocoa in hand,
my finger follows highlighted highways
across state maps spread out over the coffee
table,
and I can feel myself driving south
through Pipestone and down 75 past Rock
Rapids, Iowa,
watching the sun rise over foreign fields
as Charlene sleeps to dawn
but I always rinse the cup out, fold the
maps,
and head back to bed, and Charlene always
wakes before me
and plans another day out too swiftly
for me to ever escape it.
This made me
wonder: People are always dreaming and scheming of getting out—out of a job,
out of a relationship, out of the parents’ house, out of the state, out of this
world—but, in the end, we always end up back where we started. Why? Are we
mindless hamsters constantly riding in the spinning wheels of our cages?
Perhaps that’s all we know.
[Excerpt,
pg. 35]
Charlene is destroying me,
too slowly for anyone to notice,
like the Mount Rushmore t-shirt
worn and washed too many times
[…]
And she says she loves me
as she shears my hair too short for January
air,
talks endlessly through the last lunches
with my mother,
spends nights uninvited,
and insists I shower with rose-scented soaps
and sometimes I stand alone
in my fast fading house and wonder
how many washes are left
before I fade completely.
Must we lose
ourselves to gain another?
My favorite
one had to be the one that compared Charlene to a tornado, only getting worse
in its lingering presence and eventually destroying everything in its path. Of
course, my review is based almost entirely on these few select poems; others
weren’t quite as memorable. Still, the good writing was there.
Thought-provoking
and candid. Well done, Ms. Johnson!
My rating: 4 stars
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