Lily: An American Fable
by Samuel Bagby
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Story Description: Stephen Flashman loves sex. As a womanizer, he’s been using women for
sex all his life. But there are
two women who leave an indelible mark upon Flashman’s life, two women whose
memory he somehow cannot lay to rest in a sea of forgettable conquests. Diane
Densher is one of those women: she is incredibly smart, savvy and ambitious, an
Ivy League graduate and a successful executive with a budding career on Wall
Street: when she breaks up with Flashman he treats it like just another
breakup, but deep down her rejection of him conjures forth a terrible nagging
feeling that he could not keep her because she recognized him as a failure and
unworthy to be her mate, and he is tormented by the need to win her back.
Noelle Cummings is just the opposite of her ambitious and serious-minded
predecessor: she is a free spirit from her head to her toes, carried along by
an insatiable zest to live each day as if it were her last; she casts a wistful
light into Flashman’s bleak inner world. After breaking up with Noelle,
Flashman is torn between his affections for both women when Noelle reveals to
him that she is pregnant with his child, but is anxious and fearful about
raising a child on her own; she tells Flashman that she is thinking of
terminating the pregnancy.
For Flashman it is the moment
which sears his heart: with Diane—"the one who got away"—showing
signs of renewed interest, should he continue to give chase to her, or should
he devote his energies to Noelle and do all he can to ensure the birth of his
child, while knowing his life will never be the same again?
Author Biography: My name is Samuel Bagby. I am a
bit taciturn speaking about myself in a blog like this. I was a student, a
monk, a teacher, and now who the hell knows what--but none of that is really
important. We are all vessels of love, of passion, of something on our own
journeys towards a grand and surreal destination, and it is how we lift each
other up, edify each other, and help each other along the way that matters--and
I want to be that person that is lifting up, edifying, and helping other
sojourners, because the road is no easy path, that much all of us know.
1. What inspires and what got your started in writing?
I always loved writing, and I always loved reading, but for
whatever reason in my mind there was a stigma to the whole idea of actually
becoming a writer. It wasn't honorable or legitimate, you might say. I suppose
the Russians ruined it for most of us in this instance persevering through food
deprivation buzzes, stultifying poverty and Tsarist persecution to produce
thousand page masterworks which have ever after set the tone for literary
genius: it's that image of the artist as someone mired in wretchedness, either
as a kind of sublime foundation and ingredient from which the masterpieces
germinate, or as some inscrutable decree of fate one can't avoid; it's an
extremely difficult thing, a true leap of faith, to say to oneself, I'm going
to go through this period of privation, making little money, working a job I
don't like or leaving a job entirely to pursue my art; that's a leap of the
spirit for the prospective artist which required me many years to make. Seeing
that it took Dickens 150 years to finally get on Oprah, one can understand how
difficult that leap actually is. Eventually my love for writing just became
consuming, I couldn't do anything else—I said to myself, I'll be a barista into
my sixties to get this novel off the ground, and so far, it's all worked
according to plan.
2. Where do you write? Is there something you need in order to
write (music, drinks?)
I write in my office. It's what I call quaint and
claustrophobically small in a suffocating kind of way, and I love it: let me
rephrase. In my second draft of the previous sentence I'd just say that I've
learned to love it, because it's a maxim which holds true that poverty changes
the way a person looks at things. I can't afford to write anywhere else. IN
answer to what I need in order to write, it can be encompassed in a word:
coffee. IN explaining this dynamic, I
think I can achieve here a clarity you'll rarely observe elsewhere in life:
writer + caffeine= novel. And when I say coffee, I don't mean the crap that
looks like iced tea they serve with a scone or some other ridiculous pastry:
I'm talking about viscous, opaque, hypercaffeinated swill that you imbibe in
brutal gulps like bourbon, that during the Middle Ages was poured over city
walls onto ladders of attacking soldiers, the coffee that homicide detectives
need to wake up when they get the call at 3 am to go look at a body—it's that
kind of coffee, I'm reasonably sure, Dostoevsky was drinking round the clock
when he wrote The Brothers Karamazov.
3. How do you get your ideas for writing?
This question I'm not exactly sure how to answer, except to say,
you want something that will produce a deep, emotive effect upon a reader's
heart. I don't mean that an author should become dogmatic in presenting a story
or its themes, because there simply is no room for dogmatism within art: yet a
writer can share things, can offer things, I think even about very
controversial subjects—God, sex, relationships and so on—if it's done as an
offering, not as a decree or a pronouncement. I say this because I don't want
things to be off topic when it comes to art; everything should be on the table
because we all can learn from each other as it concerns these deep existential
issues. I shouldn't condemn a work simply for its theme or message, even if it
doesn't strictly concord with my worldview; there are still some parts of the
work and its perceptions which might enhance my own, which might facilitate my
own growth in some way. We—as a democracy, and in a deeper sense, a community
of artists—truly have to take to heart this notion of being a marketplace of
ideas. That's why I believe that works dealing with subjects like God and
sexuality should be entertained no matter what perspective is being presented,
as long as it's done with a spirit of offering, not propaganda—it's in this
that the great value of art lies, not only to enable us to contemplate nature
and beauty, but to serve as a vessel through which people can share with loving
freedom their own deeply felt insights on these issues of cardinal importance
to life and the human spirit.
4. What do you like to read?
I'll be honest here: I tend towards the classics. What you might call my process begins
with me sitting down and reading some literary genius for five or ten pages
just to sort of quicken one's faculties for the work of writing. To learn to
write well one has to read from someone who is a master of the craft; then the
sentence structure, the grace and beauty with which he or she chooses and
constructs phrases and sentences will be duly absorbed. I'm not saying that if
one starts reading Hemingway that he or she will sit down and start writing
five word sentences—though he certainly composed some rather lengthy and
beautiful constructions as well—but it will have some sort of an effect on
one's own composition.
5. What would your advice to be for authors or aspiring in
regards to writing?
Self-publishing is something I would
encourage all writers to undertake, that is, if the sense of discouragement in
them is becoming increasingly painful, not to say unbearable—which was true in
my case, at least. Self-publishing, together with the internet, has changed the
face of modern publishing, I think in a quite remarkable way that represents
true progress for writers, for readers and for literature as a whole. The
marketplace has opened up for a chorus of voices who all have something to
offer—the public will then decide what is quality, where previously quality was
a certain nebulous concept, some sort of abstruse notion floating in the ether
grasped only by a small coterie of elite individuals wielding an almost
absolute power without accountability. What was fair about any of this? Nothing
at all—if the public didn't like the books chosen for them, they couldn't get
works from unpublished writers, they had to wait for the "quality"
cartel you might say to select what they saw fit for them: almost like parents
choosing materials for children not mature or competent enough to do it for
themselves. What is most ironic about all of this—and most appalling to be
sure—is that these agents and publishers themselves are often ruthless and
cruel in their estimations of writers, they possess colossal egos with very
little or any competence behind all the bluster; these people literally drip
with hubris and dole out scorn to good writers while they themselves little
comprehend what literature is—there is simply a formula in their heads, a kind
of crude taste that one either corresponds with or falls shy of—and that either
makes a writer acceptable or someone who should find something else to do with
their time. But writers must never listen to these people; they must believe in
their vision and persevere. Self-publishing is really the salvation of
literature in my opinion: it is the true marketplace where artists can express
themselves freely and receive the true judgment of the public, of the people
they are really attempting to reach. Furthermore it can take years to actually
get signed by an agent—meanwhile the writer is waiting and waiting for income,
for the book to get turned out into the public—and it may never happen.
Self-publishing and the internet, the blogs, thank God have changed all that.
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